Farrah’s Sad Song

Are you going to watch Farrah’s home video documentary on tv (nbc) tonight? I’m not. And here is why: I’ve gone through this terminal illness as an obsever way too many times in my short life to want to do it again, even at a distance. My best friend passed away due to AIDS, my uncle very recently lost his battle with pancreatic cancer, and now my good friend from work has found out that her level 4 skin cancer has spread to her lymph nodes & breast and is undergoing chemotherapy as I type.

It is a very, very real and painful experience, I mean, I couldn’t even imagine how it is to actually be the one to GO through it, but the knowledge that you are limited in the ability to help a loved one cope and be comfortable is a frustrating on.

I know that is selfish in it’s statement, and perhaps I am not really expressing my words as I type them, but I am really not trying to be selfish here. All I am trying to express is that when you watch someone fight the fight of their life, and progressively lose, it puts an entirely new perspective on many things that are typically taken for granted, dwelled on, and perhaps ignored.

With that said, I again state that I will not be watching this documentary, however, I really think that if you haven’t gone through the complete raw and unedited version of being a companion to a loved one with a terminal illness, YOU totally SHOULD watch this. It will probably re-focus your entire method of living, redefine what is important, priorities your existence and reach out to be with those who are loved and who matter in your life. I applaud Farrah in her choice to share her experience, I know…I KNOW it was probably the most exhausting moment in her entire life, and for that, I do pray for you.

Healing thoughts, positive energy and well wishes,
sylvia